|When You Try Your Best But You Don't Succeed.|
When You Get What You Want But Not What You Need.
I guess I didn't think I would be missed so much.
I was sorely mistaken.
Returning to my DA account is like returning to the beginning for me. It is a time of self evaluation and self exploration. I go back to see what made Jupiter Green. . .Jupiter Green!
I recently had a horrible dream where my alter ego, shall we say, met her end. Jupiter Green has always held her sword and shield for others, but when it came to herself, she often left things undone and festering. She fought valiantly, but in the end, she fell and the Great Winged Oak Tribe ceased to exist. Her Jupitarian Home was burned to ash and her cracked shield lie with her sword.
From her ashes a new side emerged. One with cold, calculating precision and the eyes of a trained mercenary. She who emerged from that rubble was cunning and in it for herself. She carries a Louisville Slugger and keeps to herself unless provoked.
She was the strength I had to find in myself.
If you frequent Archive of our Own, you will likely find this strength moonlighting as SimplySix.
Six is the name I gave to the indifference I needed to have. The name for the pain. The name for the times I never stood up for myself when I really needed to.
Six is the one that I believed in when I needed to stop being a fucking martyr and keep pushing.
I wouldn't say that JG's life is terrible, but it certainly keeps headed South for my health. xD
Six was the other side of Jupiter Green. The hate she hid. The anger she quelled. The pain she never allowed herself.
Jupiter Green has meant more to me than any other creation I've held dear to me. With her, I have the legacy of this blog, my Tumblr and my Fanfiction.
I retired her name last year.
My Tumblr and Fanfiction followers were kind of like, "WHA? WHY?" and "If you ARE the real Jupiter Green, why did you change your name!?"
Sometimes, there is too much pain associated with a name.
Sometimes, it is better to leave it for now and pray that the love and care you gave to it was for the best.
Sometimes, a change of pace is what you need.
I will not change my DA account. I think that this will remain as it has for neigh on nine years.
It will serve as a reminder to who I am, was and may be again.
But, for those of you wanting some of that fanfiction, JG goodness. Check out SimplySix on AO3.
It is the same old JG, just with a name that suits her best right now.
Love and Luck